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My son’s first birthday cake leaned so badly to the left that Mason kept pretending to straighten it with one finger.

He did it with the concentration of a surgeon and the grin of a man who knew exactly how close he was to being smacked with a dish towel.

“Stop touching it,” I told him.

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“I’m not touching it,” he said. “I’m emotionally supporting it.”

The cake was vanilla with pale blue frosting, and the blue had turned out brighter than I meant it to.

In the bowl, it had looked soft and sweet.

On three layers of cake, it looked like a weather alert.

I had stayed up until 1:00 a.m. piping tiny clouds around the edges while Noah slept upstairs with one hand tucked under his cheek.

By morning, half the clouds had slumped into strange little marshmallow shapes.

Noah would not care.

He was one.

He cared about bananas, ceiling fans, and the sound of his own squeals bouncing off kitchen cabinets.

The backyard smelled like cut grass and charcoal.

Mason had mowed before breakfast, and now the late-morning sun caught on every borrowed plastic chair we had lined along the fence.

Blue and white balloons bumped softly against the wood whenever the breeze moved through.

A banner over the patio door said ONE in crooked gold letters.

It was simple.

That was all I wanted.

Simple had become precious to me after growing up in a house where every birthday, holiday, and dinner could become a test you did not know you were taking until you failed.

My parents had a gift for making normal moments feel conditional.

If I was happy, I was showing off.

If I needed help, I was irresponsible.

If I did not need help, I was arrogant.

Mason used to say they moved the finish line because they were afraid I would finally see there had never been a prize.

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